‘I felt I couldn’t carry on’: Rylan Clark reveals he tried to end his own life after marriage breakdown and admits he CHEATED on ex-husband Dan
Rylan Clark has sadly revealed that he tried to end his own life after his marriage breakdown last year.
The TV star, 33, has told in his new book that he felt he ‘couldn’t carry on anymore’ after his ex-husband Dan Neal left him when Rylan told him he had cheated on him.
Rylan revealed that he had been unfaithful to his now former partner ‘years ago’ but that once he came clean in May 2011 Dan told him their relationship was over and moved out after six years together.
Difficult: Rylan Clark has sadly revealed that he tried to end his own life after his marriage breakdown
In his new book Ten: The Decade That Changed My Future he writes of his mental health breakdown after the split: ‘For the first time in my 32 years, I felt I couldn’t carry on no more.
‘What’s the point?’ I thought. I’d lost what I thought was everything, the one thing I always wanted. A man I loved. A family of my own. And now it was gone.
‘So I tried to end it. I won’t go into detail as I don’t think it’s fair on my mum, but thank God I was unsuccessful.’
Complicated: The TV star, 33, has told in his new book that he felt he ‘couldn’t carry on anymore’ after his ex-husband Dan Neal left him when Rylan told him he had cheated on him
He added of telling Dan he had cheated on him: ‘I woke up one morning and decided to tell my now ex that I had cheated on him, years ago. He left. Told me it was over and that was that.’
He added: ‘I have no excuses for what I did way back then, but I had my reasons. The reality is that over the course of my relationship I had started to feel wrong: I felt I was wrong for being successful, wrong for being me.
‘Everyone around me could see things weren’t quite right. ‘You shouldn’t feel like that.’ ‘Why are you doing that?’ ‘You know that’s not normal, right?’ But he was my partner. Someone I loved. They couldn’t say anything, because I would have always taken his side. ‘
It comes after Rylan revealed that he was rushed to the hospital twice after his ‘heart stopped’ last year.
The star told how the terrifying ordeal occurred during the split from his husband Dan, 43.
Ex: Following the breakdown of his six year marriage the TV favourite took five months away from the spotlight due to his deteriorating health (pictured with Dan in 2017)
Speaking at the launch of his new book Ten: The Decade That Changed My Future, he said: ‘I didn’t just get mentally ill, I got physically ill.’
Following the breakdown of his six year marriage the telly favourite took five months away from the spotlight due to his deteriorating health.
He previously claimed to have dropped to just nine stone which led to him being hospitalised for ‘safety reasons’ after refusing food.
The told the audience at London’s Royal Festival Hall: ‘Twice last year I ended up in the back of an ambulance because my heart failed’.
Following the hospital dash he was administered an injection which helped his heart begin to beat again in a more regular fashion.
He explained: ‘I just remember the shot going in and all of a sudden this feeling from the middle of your body, both ways, almost takes you over, and you just stop and my heart stopped’.
‘There’s just seven faces and this bright light just looking at me. And then I took a breath. And they were like, ‘He’s in a normal rhythm’.
‘I was like, ‘What the f**k is going on?”
He went on to say that family members were convinced that he was only suffering heartbreak however he was sure it was more serious.
Rock bottom: In his new book he writes of his mental health breakdown after the split: ‘For the first time in my 32 years, I felt I couldn’t carry on no more’
‘I knew it wasn’t right. It turned out that my heart had to be restarted. I remember laying in resus and I had all these pads on with all these wires and not understanding what it was’.
He continued: ‘It was only afterwards that I said, ‘What was the pads for?’ And they said, ‘If you didn’t take your breath… because we would have had to restart you electrically. You don’t even think about it when you’re there. So I didn’t just get mentally ill, I got physically ill.’
It came after Rylan revealed his body ‘shut down’ and that his mum Linda was convinced he was having a stroke during his health troubles.
The presenter admitted he couldn’t even talk and had ‘slurred’ speech while taking time away from work.
Caring mother: It comes after Rylan revealed his body ‘shut down’ and that his mum Linda (pictured) was convinced he was having a stroke during his health troubles
Now, appearing on Fearne Cotton’s Happy Place podcast, the TV personality said: ‘My body did completely shut down. I wouldn’t eat. I went through a stage where I couldn’t even talk, which for some people might be quite handy.
‘My speech was just slurred. My mum thought I was having a stroke. My body just went. I went down to 9st and I am six-foot-four.’
An avid Eurovision fan, he has been a semi-final commentator since 2018 but his notable absence during the 2021 contest raised red flags among friends.
Rylan continued: ‘Two days before I was due to do Eurovision, everyone knew when I wasn’t at Eurovision something was wrong.
‘If I had done it, I may not have gone on such a quick decline. And when I say quick decline, it felt like minutes. I felt like I’d had the jab and I was shutting down.’
The former Celebrity Big Brother housemate, who claims he hadn’t stopped working since his stint on 2012’s The X Factor, confessed he ‘needed’ a break.
He said: ‘It was hard but on reflection, yes, I needed to stop. Maybe it was an amalgamation of 10 years. I didn’t stop since the day I went on The X Factor.
‘Nothing stopped. I don’t regret stopping. I do feel if I try to carry on, maybe I could have dealt with things better from a personal point of view. I don’t regret that I stopped.’
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Ten: The Decade That Changed My Future by Rylan is out on the 29th of September in Hardback from Seven Dials.
Sad ending: He previously claimed to have dropped to just nine stone which led to him being hospitalised for ‘safety reasons’ after refusing food during the split from Dan (pictured in 2017)